Vincent Van Gogh and his muse

At first glance it might seem that the story of the life of Vincent Van Gogh seemed to purposely someone came up as a dramatic parable of the thorny path of the artist, who is in a constant struggle with his hard life. Well, if you look deeper into the emotional distress and suffering on the basis of an unhappy love affair, then also see that the distraught from all the vicissitudes of fate genius, lived all his life without mutual love, but with all my heart sought to quiet family happiness, but it never found.

"What can you do to suffer and not complain - that's the only lesson we must learn in this life, of course, it is the best for me -. Not to be alone, but I prefer to spend my life alone than to sacrifice other people's lives for the sake of his . " This was it all ... a living legend, a madman, an unrecognized during his lifetime and became famous all over the world after his passing genius.

Even while living in London, in 1873, 20-year-old Vincent was selling paintings, and even did not think about how to start writing their own creations. Dealer Jobs gave him a decent salary and the opportunity to get a promotion. He did not think that any change in his life and did not think that when something will seriously painting. But fate decreed otherwise, having presented him a hard test in love affairs.

Ursula Loyer - the first London love Van Gogh

Portrait of a girl. Author: Van Gogh.

First love Vincent named Ursula. 19-year-old girl was the daughter of the mistress of the house in which Van Gogh rented a corner. And she, being a woman adventurous, held in the backyard of his house a private kindergarten, where Ursula had to deal with children. "Angel babies" - the so-called Vincent girl and could sit for hours in the backyard, watching Ursula entertains children. He dreamed and hoped nothing would come true in his life ever.

The idyll. Author: Van Gogh.

Young creature quickly overwhelmed heart passionately in love with a young man. Vincent also seemed to be a good girl for a very friendly relationship. In his spare time, they were inseparable. In the morning Ursula woke Vincent to go with him for a walk or have breakfast together. In a word, it is thus brightened their ordinary days, but she unknowingly made these days memorable for him.

Portrait of a young woman in a straw hat. Author: Van Gogh.

And how often happens in life, she belonged to such a relationship is very lightly. She planned to marry another, as Van Gogh did not differ special beauty, and treat it as a groom to Ursula even never occurred. But the worst thing is that she did not think about the consequences and did not notice that in my heart 20-year-old boy was seriously inflamed real passion.

Vincent is not just trying to confess his love, she turns everything into a joke, saying that she already has a betrothed than that resulted in confusion.

Self-portrait. Author: Van Gogh.

And most likely, it was during this time and appeared the first "strangeness" in the state of mind of the future genius, worsen with age. Van Gogh flatly refused to believe that his beloved has already groom and continued relentlessly follow her.

But once chosen ghost still appeared in the house of Ursula. Vincent was immediately denied an apartment, and he had to move to the suburbs of London. But the distance did not stop the young man possessed. Every day after work, he continued tirelessly to come to the home of his muse, to a few minutes to stand under her window - suddenly there melknot silhouette sweetheart.

Home Pere Eloi. Author: Van Gogh.

He passed dozens of kilometers on foot, the blood washed his feet, and all for a few minutes of happiness. But one day one of those days, Van Gogh had the misfortune to witness her wedding. Life suddenly lost all meaning for him, and he finally lost interest in his work, for which he was soon fired. Even the intercession of influential relative did not save the situation, and he had to go to his parents in the village. His father was happy that his son did not cope with the Catholic, because their family was Protestant faith.

Huts. June 1890. Author: Van Gogh.

Vincent forbade himself to love ... There followed years of searching himself ... He moved from town to town trying to study, work. There was even a priest in the mining town, but everywhere he was considered a man "not of this world" and everywhere he met misunderstanding and ridicule. Finally, understand that will devote itself only to the arts, he returned under the roof of his home and decides that he would seriously study painting.

Kay Vos - the new love of the artist

"Portrait of a woman with her hair." (1885), Vincent Van Gogh Museum. Amsterdam. Netherlands.

Vincent seemed to fall in love for the second time is not possible. After all, such as his Ursula no longer on the ground. Yes, indeed, "the second" Ursula was not, but had a cousin Kay. And already in 1881, Vincent wrote to his younger brother, Theo, in which he shared his secret with him: "I want to inform you that this summer I very much liked the K."

Portrait of a seated woman. (1886). Author: Van Gogh.

This mysterious "K" was a cousin of Van Gogh, which, although it was very young, but has already managed to get married, have a child and widowed. And how to get re-married woman did not reflect. Especially her and it had not occurred to him to connect his life with an ugly cousin, also famous for his eccentricities. Once he met with parents of Vincent, where Kay came to visit, because it shook the mysterious sorrow in her eyes, he was right there, on the spot, confessed his love for her. It should be noted that Van Gogh's cousin liked for a long time.

"The Woman in the Garden." Author: Van Gogh.

He scared Kei its recognition to the extent that she immediately gathered her things and left the house of Van Gogh, while saying that the cousin of reciprocity can not count.

However, Vincent, unable to bear the lessons from past experience, decided not to retreat, and went after his beloved. A young woman once again strongly denied it, but it is only podzadorilo mad genius. He, all blazing with passion, every day she wrote a letter, sometimes the number reached five pieces.

Girl reading a book. Author: Van Gogh.

And Kay, being in such an awkward position, was forced to tell her parents about the morbid fascination of Vincent. And they've enlisted the help of his father Van Gogh. A huge scandal erupted. My mother and father denounced the passion and obsession son, exhibiting towards his cousin.

Self-portrait. Author: Van Gogh.

But no one was able to stop a madman, and he once again went to his beloved home. This time, her parents became strongly on the barrier intrusive relative. In a fit of despair, van Gogh has brought his hand over the flame of a burning candle and said, "Let me at least talk with Kay as much as I can to keep his hand in the fire!".

Man in the sea. Author: Van Gogh.

Five, ten, fifteen seconds ... Vincent skin blistered, began to burst, black. All were dumbfounded. Then Kay's father, unable to endure the terrible spectacle, literally pushed over the threshold of a madman.

Life for the artist was once again over. There was only one thing - his work.

His brother Theo, he wrote about it this way: "Then - though not immediately, but very soon - I felt that love had died in me, and her place was taken by emptiness, infinite void ... But after death are raised from the dead ..." after all the events, the artist finally fell out with his parents and left home, where he next returned only two years later.

nicknamed prostitute Girl Shin

"Sin with a cigar, sitting on the floor in front of Fire" (1882). Author: Van Gogh.

The artist moved to The Hague, and decided to start life from scratch. Life gradually came into its bed, Vincent worked hard, plunging headlong into painting. Here he soon became acquainted with Mary Klazinoy Hoornik - girl of easy virtue, nicknamed Sin.

On his acquaintance with whom Van Gogh wrote to his brother Theo in May 1882: "This winter I met a pregnant woman who has left the father of her unborn child. She wandered through the streets, trying to zarabotat bread known method. I hired her as a model and worked with her all winter. "

Sin with a child. Author: Van Gogh.

Vincent saw in this woman's sister in misfortune - it cost the life of even tougher than him, why Van Gogh was trying to help her. And despite the fact that Shin infected him with gonorrhea, and Vincent had to be treated in the venereal hospital, he took her after giving birth to her with the baby and the eldest daughter. "I feel it is not the passionate feeling which I cherished in the past year to K .; but such love as I love Sin - is the only thing that I can do after the disappointment in his first passion. "

Klazina Maria Hoornik. Author: Van Gogh.

With Sin Van Gogh lived for about a year and a half. He wanted to save this poor woman, and even thought to marry her. But family, learning about the intentions son has once again been thrown into confusion, and all the forces opposed to this marriage. In letters to his brother, the artist wrote: "Leave it - then again push into prostitution, and this is the hand that tried to save her, do not ..."

To keep a woman with children and do not cut spending on drawing accessories, Vincent began to save on their own power, in the end, his health began to fail, there were signs of a hungry exhaustion, weakness and fatigue. However, noble impulse of a woman is not appreciated. In his painting, she did not realize she loved a good drink, and quickly realized that the artist - a beggar as a church mouse, and seeing no longer any prospect of marriage, left him.

"Sin is nursing the child" (1882). Author: Van Gogh.

Van Gogh, being kind to the extreme sensitive, could not understand how she could throw it, benefactor, to pick her up on the street with two children? He was again suppressed and killed a woman.

Margot Begemann

Margot Begemann.

Again, the only passion in his life was painting. Once working in the open air, the artist noticed flashed in a thicket of dress. He hailed a strange woman, and as to hide no longer make any sense, Margot, was the name of a stranger, had to confess to Van Gogh, it has been a few months to a number of watches his every move and feeds him the most tender feelings.

"The Woman in the Garden." Author: Van Gogh.

Oh, how all this was similar to the behavior of Vincent at the time of his youth. And unlike their former lovers, the artist decided to give 40-year-old Margot chance, and currently the last attempt to marital happiness. And he offered Margot immediately get married.

In the garden. Author: Van Gogh.

But, alas, this marriage did not come true. Regardless of age, the bride was influenced and custody of his sisters, who were strongly against the dubious union. Margo, always submissive, suddenly persevered, and sisters had no choice but to promise that it will be given for the Van Gogh ... but not earlier than in two years.

An artist on the road to Tarascon. (1888). Author: Van Gogh.

Vincent finally realizing that the family and children is not for him, then abandoned his proposal. A miserable Margot even tried to commit suicide. From that moment Vincent Van Gogh sworn never ever fall in love and decided to forget about the women once and for all, from now to the rank of his lover once again the artist once again lifted the painting.

On the threshold of eternity. 1890 Author: Van Gogh.

There was already a former health: "I quickly turn into a old man - wrinkled, bearded, toothless" - and it's 34 years. Broken mental and physical health made itself felt. But now the hand of the artist became more confident and began to operate with a magic obedience, he wrote joyful shining paintings, "experiencing the most profound emotional turmoil in their lives."

Almond branch in bloom. Author: Van Gogh.

A few days before his suicide, Vincent van Gogh in mysterious terms summed up his whole life: "From those to whom I was most attached, I have not received anything, they looked at me as if through a glass, darkly."

Instead of love, all his life he was forced to settle for, in his words, "ridiculous and not very plausible amours", which did not and could not have that human fullness, of which he dreamed.